Worked out...

Yesterday Tuesday I went to the gym and worked out on the ellptical trainer for about 35-minutes. I could have done longer, however i did notwant to over do it.. Now i am up about to take a shower and i am not sore at all... I can say that i feel pretty good... :-) What is so funny is that some of the girls at work are like girl i can tell u are loosing weight already... they act like i just started eating right since i got the band uhhh no this process started way before the 15th of may...lol.. but it's all good I would have never thought that i would be this cool with everything. I have read that so many people have diffrent problems with keeping their food down and not being able to eat certain things, but i thank God that I already prayed about everything going perfect with the band and my system. All things are possiable to them that believe. God has been so good to me and I thank him everyday that I am no longer tempted to eat like a glutten. lol... Oh we had a pot luck yesterday at work yesterday, and i made a peach cobbler for my team per my supervisors request. They were like how do u know its good if u cant eat it and i was like i put some of the juicy part in a bowl and i tasted it and then i let my son taste it and he gave me the thumbs up...lol.. i dont have to eat a portion to know i know how to cook...lol... one of the girls on the team made chicken and rice soup and it was so good. That was all i had... now let me tell u how my will power is. In the room there were 2 pans of fried chicken spagetti with meat in it, taco salad, macaroni salad, chocolate cake, greens, muffins, cream of chicken soup, macaroni and cheese, bread, pop, ice cream, and peach cobbler. and all i had was a little bowl of soup... they were looking at me like are u serious... that's it... ha ha ha ... yup.....

Getting better but still have bad gas...

LOL... Well i feel pretty good today, but the gas is really starting to get on my nerve... I can actually tell by looking at myself that I am loosing weight... sometimes it takes others to look at u to be able to tell but i can actually tell myself. I feel pretty good. I was going to go to LA Fittness today but being that it is the holiday the kids club wasent open... how sad...lol.. so i guess i will go tomorrow thru thursday. The whole part about why i can only go 4-day's a week is because the kids club closes on friday @ noon and my day's off are sat & sunday and not going to church is not an option and i still have to have a day to run around and do shopping and stuff... and I also told my son that 1x a week if he is good and behaves i will take him to chuck e cheese on friday's since we wont be going to the gym... It is all good... I know that when i lost weight before i was eating right and working out like 5-days a week and i averaged about 15-22 lbs a month in weight loss, so i know i should do about the same thing but anything less than 15lbs a mth would not be ok with me by any means... and one other thing that pisses me off is when u read the message boards on some of the sites and people that never got their azzes up the workout always say i have been banded for 3-yrs and have only lost 18lbs wtf.. why would u go and get the lap band if u were not ready to change your eating habits.... that is the craziest thing i have ever heard... thats why it is so hard for some people to get approval because they r really not going to make the change they just want it becuase they think it's a mini gastric bypass but safer and it's totally diffrent... alright talk to u later... gotta go and wash my truck..

The fine days after my new beginning....

I must say that my last meal was on Wednesday... and my sug. was on thursday so of course i didn't eat anything on thursday and friday yeah right.... saturday...joke and sunday yeah ok... I seriously thought i was going to die.... I was like just sitting and starring like i couldn't move... i had no strength to do anything i was stuck... My mom came to me in vision i will say and said Trina get up and get u some water and mix some sugar in it and just sip on that baby... drink some more for momma.... and i did i swear it was like she was here and i started to feel better right away. This was monday morning at like 2 or 3ish in the am like it is now..... I will always love MY MOMMA.... I had to stop taking the pain meds. because they were making me sicker and more nausaeated how crazy... take away the pain, but leave something else wrong...uhhhh nope... I just prayed about it. and I will say I feel so much better now and I know that I have beat the hell out of this fat deamon, killed it and sent it back to hell from where it came from. I will no longer be a slave to food. Bottom line. I have taken control back from the enemy. All i can say is God is great. Is there anything too hard for God? Nope.. I am a living witness.... One thig i do know and realize that with reading the post on ohhelp.com, and lapbandtalk.com is that everyone says everyday is a better day and it is..... so true.... I know GOD had great things in store for me know.... Watch out world here I come!!!!!

The day of my new beginning....

Ok I was finally banded on 5-15-2008. I actually got up early and took my son to school. Prayed over him hugged and kissed him, and when i got back to the house the limo was already here to pick me up. Wow this is so cool... i parked got in and we were on our way. When i arrived i filled out the little paper work that i had to fill out and i did my EKG passed.... :-) and a few minutes later i was taken to the waiting area. I had to change into my lovely robe and slippers uhhhh lol.. i was really excited... My Surgeon was actually preforming on someone when i arrived, but right before they were ready for me he came and shook my hand, and asked if i had any questions of course i did... How large is the band u are going to put in. He said 10cc and it actually comes with a fill so i will start loosing weight right off the back... HOW EXCELLENT!!!! is that... other little stuff and off he went, and the anstialogist came in and gave me my iv line... preped me...he was cool... i used the rest room 1-last time and i was off to the o.r. all i remembered asking was are u all going to tape this and they laughed and said no the tv is just to show us what we are doing...lol... then he said u might feel a little sting and i said ok... and it was over. I woke up in the recovery room and I asked how did everything go and he said PERFECT!!!!... I was like was my liver small enough and he said it couldn't have went better. You were a model patiend.... That's what i'm talking about... WHAT!!!!!!!!!... Hell i wasen't starving for nothing....lol.... But then the post op nurse came in and started asking me about pain.. I told her that i needed some pain meds.. she gave it to me, checked my blood pressure and gave me a few sips of water... everything A-OK... I was in recovery for a few hours and then i was off. The driver came back to pick me up took me home where i laid on the couch not to far from the front door lol... because i knew i had to pick up my son. OH MY GOD!!!! WHEN I SAY I WAS in pain baby.... i refuse to lie to anyone. I was in some pain. I should have demanded not just asked for more help and assistance from my friends, and or family since my brother and mother passed away.. because trying to do it by yourself is no JOKE.... I went to CVS to get my perscription filled and felt like i was going to pass out in the drive thru... I had to take the first dose of my pain meds right there it was so bad... I finally got home got my son something to eat, i turned on the TV for him and he had his toys he was good to go. I told him mommy had a tummy ache and that i was going to lay down... and that was all she wrote...

The last day as a Fat person....

Well today is my official day as a fat person. I will be banded on tomorrow on May 15th and I am so excited. It has taken me so long to finally get to this point, because I was always putting it off because of what others may have said, thought or did. This is about me at this point. I am ready to start being the person I always I knew I was in the inside, but the outside reflected someone else. I am going to work the hell out of this band. I am not going to slack on my working out at all, and I mean that from the bottom of my heart. I am ready to prove to myself that I can acheive anything I want... The point is if i want it bad enough..... and I want this like i long to be debt free.... and I will acheive that as well... I am so thankful and grateful for a successful banding on tomorrow, and a healthy life to begin as well. I know my mother and brother will be right there with me making sure that every thing goes ok... God is my strength and my source. Whom or what shall I fear? Is there anything too hard for God? I am charging my digital camera now so when i start on my journey in the morning I will be taking pictures like im on tour or something. One of the best things about it is that I will be picked up in a limo and i will be having the procedure done on Michigan Avenue in Down Town Chicago the Mag. Mile... WOW...... I'm off to sleep so i will chat with u tomorrow.... Get ready world here I come....

Counting down...

Ok I am counting down today is Saturday, and Tuesday i have to go to do my blood work, and then on thursday...Is my new Birthday....yeah baby.... I am so happy.. I am well into my pre-op diet and I am actually doing good. I can eat 1 meal a day and since I don't eat pork, or beef I pretty much keep it turkey and chicken....I can also say that 90% of loosing weight is in your head. As crazy as that sounds it is... I was on the way from getting my son's hair cut yesterday after work, and school and i was like I cant wait to eat... omg i am so hungry but i wasent actually hungry i know i just had my shakes, and my v-8 juice crystal lyte, chicken broth, no REAL FOOD.. I said it is a life style change because i am so use to eating something even if it's snacking... and i'm not hungry... how sad... but when u know better u can do better.... and I am... HOLLA.....Now that's whats up....lol

Really determined.....

Now it is 3:57 in the am, and my dumb ass is up typing on the computer like i don't have to be at work @ 9am. hmmmm I wouldn't say that I am pissed off or anything but it really does bother me for people that are trying to loose weight not give it their all. What I mean by that is for example I have a new pod buddy @ work and she is the size I was orig. before i started to loose weight, and she is like girlll what r u doing? I let her know that I am not doing all of the sinceless snacking and if i do i'm eating baked lays and not regular ones, and i am drinking water, wylers lyte or crystal lyte, drinking slim fast, and so on... and 10-minutes later she pulls a bag of regular ruffles out of the drawer and was like girllll i'm going to start eating right tomorrow.. lol.. she says this shit everyday and i'm like baby girl u don't have to try to impress me. I am loosing weight for me. I don't have low self esteem. I know I am a show stopper... what...... holla....lol.. :-) But anyway.. then she pulled a fried ham, cheese, sandwich out of her drawer wrapped in foil.. im like WTF.... are u eating over there smelling like u have a microwave under your desk. Girl nothin... yeah ok... then 10-minutes later she is like ok ok i'm going to stop, but i need your help. I was like no u need your own help. First you need not to be nasty get a handy wipe or some hand cleanser and wipe the nasty greese off of your hands before u pick up my book then you may continue to talk to me....lol... It's like most people want to loose weight because they see others like myself loosing it, and they don't want to be left behind. DO IT FOR YOU NOT FOR ME..... I have an outgoing personality, and once i am determined to do something I will do it. I think it is the competitive part of my mother in me that refuses to fail. I will never do something with the intention of putting in 1/2 of my best. I will put 110% in or i wont do it at all. I guess that is why it took me 3-years to start again after i gained the weight back from having my son.

The same person was like well what is your size goal and i was like well a size 10 and she was like ohhhhh noooo girl u will look like a crack head... and i was like ok well once i get to a size 11 or 12 if i am ok with that then i will maintain that, but it's not about what u may like because i c u like being overweight and fine where u are. It's about being ok with yourself, and she was like well have u ever been a size 10 before and i was like NOPE... and she was like well why not a size 14 and i said because a size 14 is too close to a size 18 which is not ok for me to be in. Do u understand that it is still an unhealty weight rang and size for a person. I was like if u can gain 10-15lbs and have to go to the next size that's not cool... I want to have a cushion meaning if my weight goes up and down a tad i will still be in the same size... A size 10 may not be ok for u but im sure it will be ok for me. I said I have never been a millionaire before and I believe I can make that happen as well.. Now what....

I think more or less it just buggs the hell out of me to see people that want to loose weight but not want to put in the work to get there. I need the assistance with the band so i wont be as hungry, but at the same time i'm willing to put in the work by not eating the same bull shit that got me fat in the first place, and getting up off my fat azz and work out... I wish everyone that wanted to loose weight would just wait until they are really truly ready then start the process, but it ain't cool to start on a diet every other monday. Trust and believe me when i say other's bad habits are not going to make me turn around because I know who I am and what i want out of this life, and I have made the decision to stop being a slave to food... How about that......