R u kidding me...

Ok today I had a fill... my second one.. so i now have a total of 6cc's Pretty much bottom line the end of the story is i didn't loose any weight.... R u kidding.... hmmmm dosent sound right to me but whatever... I havent been working out like i know i should have because my damn elliptical trainer broke.... but now that i think about it... I sit next to 2 sorry azz women that eat and snack all damn day... and for the past few weeks i have been hungrier than normal and they always bring in these flamin hot cheese curls asking if i want some and ordering chicken wings and chineese food and crap.. now i dont fall into a lot of traps that they set, but i did have some of the flamin hot cheetos... and now that i look back i was doing rather well until that crap happened.. and then it was like i got constipated.... wow i am so pissed off at myself I know i could have done better and i go back in 4-weeks for another fill and trust me i am going to try my best to loose at least 10lbs I am going to do the damn thing and i am going to post on my blog everyday and that will actually help me be accountable for my actions...... uhhhhhh well one excuse is that i moved saturday and i was kinda overwhelmed but that is over and im good.... so now is the day for me to start understanding that i did this for me not anyone elso but me... and I will quote by the end of this year I will be at least 235lbs.... mark my words.........