I'm back....

Well i have to apologize to myself for not taking the time to write my thoughts down. I know i will look back at this and truly appreciate it later.... Now I have lost an addt. 7lbs.. But i can truly say that the weight loss has been slow as hell.... I use to take anti hunger pills and i didnt realize how they helped me. I haven't taken any in about 2mths and I am going thru withdrawl and it seems like my weight loss is finally picking back up now.. Sad to say but the band does not control the urge to eat... that crap is truly in your head... there is no pill for that. If u are hungry then u are hungry.. but what if yr not hungry and u just want to eat then what? Sometimes i wish i would have gotten the gastric bypass and i would be so farther along than i am now. I want it to be if i eat sweets i get sick and i throw it back up, but with the band u can eat all of that crap... rice will get stuck but cookies wont.... wtf.... this is some crazy stuff but i went thru the pain and i am going to do what i have to do to get it off. I think i was frustrated because i didnt have a restriction, and i have one now it is hard grasping the fact that if i try to eat a spoon of rice it feel like my chest is going to split open but when i tried to eat a piece of my sons cookie that went down with no prob... I am lost.... but I will see what this week will bring as far as weight loss, I have started to step on the scale every other day now.. doing it once a month is crappy also.... uhhhhh I have a mini goal that i will be 245-250 before the end of the year... no matter what...